The Thing I've Been Waiting For by insomatic, literature
Literature
The Thing I've Been Waiting For
I chuckled. I chuckled, and I knew I probably shouldn't have, but I did. It wasn't a bad chuckle really; it was an amused one, to be specific. I was kind of laughing at myself for being so dumb; for being so naïve.
It's funny that you go through life, thinking you're the shit, or you're the best person to ever be born. You wear a mask, because you wouldn't dare share yourself with the world. You have to keep this calm, cool, collected attitude so people don't think they've got you in there palm of their hand. You think you get away with it and you come home day, after day, fighting off demons within four walls. Then when those four walls c
Quinn and Santana fanfic:Something Different by insomatic, literature
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Quinn and Santana fanfic:Something Different
The second time Santana showed up on Quinn's doorstep, she immediately let her in; the rims of her eyes were red, and filled with tears. It looked as if she had been out because her clothes were skin tight, and the only time she ever wore those kinds of things was when she was with Brittany.
Santana spun to face Quinn as soon as she shut the door, "I need to get wasted," she exclaimed.
Quinn's head nodded towards the kitchen, "everything is in the top drawer on the left."
Santana matched off into the kitchen, and Quinn took a seat in the living room; she appeared around the corner a few moments later. It looked as if she had no trouble
Quinn and Santana Fanfic: Fingertips by insomatic, literature
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Quinn and Santana Fanfic: Fingertips
Fingertips.
Ridges of fingerprints dragging across Quinn's palm. The sensation so sharp, yet light, she can't help but gasp; Her mind is concentrated on the feel of Santana above her.
Her fingernails begin dragging across Quinn's skin, and she lifts her chin so Santana has a clear path to kiss her neck.
Everything is dark.
Everything is black.
Everything is unseen except for the explosions of colors behind her eyelids; the blues and purples, yellows and reds. Everything is swirling, but not mixing together. People say when ones sense is no longer in use, the rest amplify. Truer words have never been said.
Quinn can hear everything.
She
There are moments, infinite spaces between the waltzes of my heart, that I imagine something different. I'm good at it too, imagining this life I won't ever get to have, or maybe what could be. It's a life where my parents don't fight, and accept me. Or perhaps one where my and Ellie could stay in this cabin forever, and never have to look back or give a reason why. I picture us holding hands and walking down the hectic streets of Chicago together. I picture Ellie's laugh being caused by something I said, and I hear her singing in the middle of the night when it's too late to care.
I imagine kissed, fiery limbs, breathy sighs.
Mostly I i
Ellie's fingerprints are everywhere; I feel them on my skin, on the bed sheets and in her tantalizingly soft black hair when I run my fingers through it. I see them on homework assignments and her ribcage where all of the scars are. I hear them in the rain, the wind, the sun, and the pad of worn converse against linoleum floor, or my own lungs. I taste them in Carmel Frappuccino's-her favorite- against my lips. I smell them whenever she is remotely close; roses and vanilla, coconut shampoo. My mind spins, in a way that makes me exhausted because I can no longer imagine a world without her, and I ache when I'm reminded of her self destruction;
My mom was silent as her fingers lightly traced the red splotch on my lower neck; she tucked a strand of my brunette hair behind my ear and mumbled, "Be careful."
She was the first to notice.
"Is that a hickey on your neck?" Eric asks the next day when I walk past. He is sitting on the couch over coffee and his eyes peer up over his glasses.
"Yeah," I say, reaching up to attempt to hide it, "I guess it is."
He smiles-more like smirks- and sets his cup down, "I think I'll need a proper introduction to this boy tomorrow."
I swivel so my feet face him, probably bracing myself, "Um, well…..actually….you have met her, you know, Ellie, th
The pounding in my head hadn't receded for an hour now and I could feel the vein on my temple pound with a venomous rhythm. My fingers pressed harder and harder into my skin but nothing will relieve the pain. I sit up with a dull moan and survey my trashed room from a huge party the night before. Cups and clothes, most of which do not belong to me, are strewn every which way. The smell of alcohol hangs in my nose and thick haze clouds my vision. When I glance down at myself, I realize that only my undergarments are left clinging to my body and my hands aimlessly search the ground for the first piece of clothing my fingers can find. The shirt
Torn Apart. Pulled Together by insomatic, literature
Literature
Torn Apart. Pulled Together
At age thirteen, three months, and five days I get that feeling again after seeing that stunning girl on TV. My stomach drops into this craving pain and I immediately put on my old shoes and leave. Running in the cool autumn weather somehow washed my brain clear, and I go wherever my feet lead me, although that's not far in an apartment complex. I see the way Sabrina looks at Lindsay and I wish it was me; I use all my power and will it to be me. God declines. My legs are on fire and my lungs feel like they are about to rupture. My knees hit the ground and I wrap my fingers in the charred grass. There, on the side walk, my head spins and I thr
It's Too Cold For Angels To Fly by insomatic, literature
Literature
It's Too Cold For Angels To Fly
I don't know what it is about you, so don't ask me. I've liked girls before; I've had strong outlooks. I've kissed girls before. In fact, I remember my first was with a girl named Sophia. We were away at church camp and hit it off right away; we were both into music. It was our last night there and when I finally got her alone in the chapel, I leaned over and kissed her. She let me for a few moment, feel like I was special, and that we might actually have something, but she pulled away, and said, "I can't."
Her hair was black, just like yours. I haven't said a word to her since.
Why in the right mind you agreed to have coffee with me afte